just a fraction, but still. this is for you
I see that i've gotten many new visitors here the last days, lovely! Bienvenido!
So who am I? Let me give you my own self enlightening point of view on that:
I was born and bred in Sweden, now living on my own in Bangkok, getting my undergraduate degree.
I guess you could say I'm a traveller. But when I say traveller I don't mean this:
-Oh yeah let's go travelling! and then you go shopping & lying on the beach for two weeks. NO.
See, If I were to put that on a satisfactory-scale from one to ten, I would rate that as a negative 20.
20 is my age also btw. 1.57 cm standing. Don't always love my life, but always love being alive.
I like exploring, seeing people, embracing new cultures, getting into trouble, getting out of trouble,
eating the strangest foods, making friends and partying with locals, impulsive actions, living in the moment
but still bearing in mind what's to come. I like smiling, and being smiled at. I like thinking and considerate
people who are not afraid to try new things, people who wanna make this world a better place.
I think that we're all equal, the difference would be that some have more pieces of paper in their pockets.
Wanna know a funny thing?
They amount of money you own doesn't define who you are, but your values do.
if we want the world to be beautiful, it will be.
Found this text on this Swedish guy's page: The escape
I have to publish it, it's from the book Into the wild by Jon Krakauer.
“I'd like to repeat the advice that I gave you before, in that I think you really should make a radical change in
your lifestyle and begin to boldly do things which you may previously never have thought of doing, or been too
hesitant to attempt. So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to
change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of
which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more damaging to the adventurous spirit
within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The
joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an
endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun.
If you want to get more out of life, Ron, you must lose your inclination for monotonous security and adopt a
helter-skelter style of life that will at first appear to you to be crazy. But once you become accustomed to such
a life you will see its full meaning and its incredible beauty. And so, Ron, in short, get out of Salton City and hit
the Road. I guarantee you will be very glad you did. But I fear that you will ignore my advice. You think that I am
stubborn, but you are even more stubborn than me. You had a wonderful chance on your drive back to see one
of the greatest sights on earth, the Grand Canyon, something every American should see at least once in his
life. But for some reason incomprehensible to me you wanted nothing but to bolt for home as quickly as possible,
right back to the same situation which you see day after day after day. I fear you will follow this same inclination
in the future and thus fail to discover all the wonderful things that God has placed around us to discover.
Don't settle down and sit in one place. Move around, be nomadic, make each day a new horizon. You are still
going to live a long time, Ron, and it would be a shame if you did not take the opportunity to revolutionize your
life and move into an entirely new realm of experience.You are wrong if you think Joy emanates only or
principally from human relationships. God has placed it all around us. It is in everything and anything we might
experience. We just have to have the courage to turn against our habitual lifestyle and engage in unconventional
living.
My point is that you do not need me or anyone else around to bring this new kind of light in your life.
It is simply waiting out there for you to grasp it, and all you have to do is reach for it.
The only person you are fighting is yourself and your stubbornness to engage in new circumstances.”
Don't be scared of life.
I'm coming back for you in November Cambodia.
I'm happy. Very happy. Today I finally got to catch up with Cambodia for a few moments.
Ok, if you were to look on a map you would say that I was about 500 meters from the land border
(aka a line drawn on a piece of paper). Couldn't cross the actual border because I havn't got a
multiple entry visa yet. But I was in Cambodia, I felt it. And it felt inexplicably wonderful.
It's shabby, it's rough, it's dirty and it's poor.
And I have been completely in love with all of that since the first time I set my feet on Khmer soil.
Because all of it is REAL. And all of it is beautiful.
Couldn't get any sleep last night because my mind was busy wandering around the Angkor temples,
eating fried rice next to Pub street, talking and playing with street children, riding bicycles on dirt roads,
chatting with taxi drivers, partying at clubs in Siem Reap, riding on the back of countless motorbikes.
I miss it. But I will be there soon again.
roadtrip
here we go! Spontaneity, I love it.
But you know, I should put my pants on first. And finish eating breakfast.
Shit asså, måste skynda nu. Pusspuss
Fresh picture from my balcony,
Bangkok 03.30 am:
items
This is so good.
I'm going to Cambodia tomorrow! (well kind of)
Leaving at 4 am yahh. Sleeping time :]
flie lief life
Business assignment finished!
only have to study for midterms now -Woop woop:
Psychology, intercultural studies, business, fund math, finance and management.
Ok, Yoga time and then out in the city!
sidenote:
i'm physically stronger than ever before
and maybe mentally aswell. It feels good
flow
Today was one of those days when everything seemed to click. And I say that even though morning class was
cancelled and I could have slept for 4 more hours, because I have no need to complain. Everything just feels right.
It's not like I don't have moments(/days) of doubt, I can say that they occur frequently.
But overall I guess this is where I'm supposed to be, for now.
Compared to the average traveller I think I understand a whole lot more about thai culture,
but still I have a feeling that I have no idea what this country is really about. I'm probably right too.
No class tomorrow and it's almost weekend again! Kinda loving this flow
Less than three months until my family arrives in this hot, humid, chaotic city.
I love that time is moving so rapidly but it scares me at the same time.
-Don't you just love the communication we've got here? I write something and you simply agree.
I think it's great.
Update from last week:
Went with Community service club from uni to volunteer at a animal welfare centre. Studystudystudied for next
weeks midterm exams, drank cha yen, ate rice, explored more of the city, got sweaty, dreamed about Cambodia,
watched a great documentary that put words to what I have been feeling for very long.
It's called THRIVE-what on earth will it take?
Cruized around one evening at talat Rod Fai - a vintage market with a wonderfully chilled out
atmosphere and a great variety of things to buy/admire. Everyone who visit Bkk should go there!
Ciao!
fraction
Have you missed meeeeee?
If so, you are gonna have to miss me abit more. hihi
4 hour math class here I come!
ashes
Good night
I had written more here previously but it got deleted somehow.
nvrmind. I'm going to sleep
Almost weekend! Pussssss & kram
the world ain't half as bad as they paint it to be
Will (try to) dedicate this week to photographing. And silently wishing someone will give me a new camera.
#gastrointestinal illness
#beach #pattaya #chill #furama #seafood #sick
Back in the wonderful Big City. Am kinda busy doing homework and being ill.
Swimming in the sea was nice. And no flooding has occurred.
let's play a little
Read that heavy rains are expected to arrive here tomorrow,
and that there has been a warning for possible flooding in all districts of Bkk.
Doesn't sound very nice. But we all love surprises, don't we?
read more here
We were planning beach party this weekend. Guessing we'll see about that.
Time for sleep. It's raining outside btw, hehe..
My camera is not cooperating very well, so I give you archive pics:
shao
new school week.
Birthday lunch for a classmate, a slight som tam overload
Messed up class today. bigtime. But the thing is the people who mess it up
are actually really funny so it's hard to stay annoyed for long.
Fried rice, car repair, yoga and a few litres of sweat.
and fresh pics from outside my place:
I never pressed start
blablabla
I give you some pictures. Here.
eh
I've been kidnapped.
/my friends don't allow me to go home. haha
Not complaining, get home cooked food here. Lovely
Nighty!
house
Pretty lazy saturday. Changed plans, no beach this weekend.
No sad faces, Bkk has plenty to offer. Spent half the night yesterday just watching the
skyline from the 16t floor at my friends condo. Maybe karaoke at Waterside tonight.
I only stay in my room half as much as i used to. And I like it
Fluffy! Gissa vem jag härmar:
du borde veta.
på sista bilden härmar jag inte mer, hade lite för mycket fritid bara så jag bestämde mig för att göra
ett ansiktslyft, men det är nog ganska likt henne ändå.
oh so beautiful!
bangarang
Had a very very happy birthday thanks to my dear friends here <3
Finished half of the school week already. Fun is over.
Heh well ok, at least until friday. Party at the beach this weekend!
Homework is calling, but I'm taking a siesta now. Sooo tired.
Puss puss!
cheesy 20
Idag är min dag, men utan er två skulle jag aldrig ens ha existerat.
Tillägnar denna dagen till er, mamma och pappa.
Tack för att ni hjälpt mig bli den person jag är idag.
Tack för att ni uppfostrade mig som ni gjorde.
Tack för att ni finns och har funnits för oss, vissa tider mer än andra.
Men viktigast av allt, tack för att ni litar på mig och låter mig vara fri.
Ibland behöver man distans för att inse.
Jag älskar er
<3
but I'm a dragon owner now
Got my first happy birthday wishes for this year a few minutes ago
and I just felt that warm, almost overwhelming, feeling deep down in my stomach.
You know, like something untouchable is growing inside of me.
So happy and thankful to be alive.
Say hi to my new friend:
Love love love to everyone who deserves it.
Chacha
