feghi

I don't want my fingers to be slipping over the keyboard, I want them to be crawling on your warm skin. 
Oh my Buddha this long distance thing requires patience. Been only one week but it feels like several months.
Tomorrow. I'm going to look into your brown eyes. That feels good.
Cambodia here we go again! This time I wont let my blog slip into a coma, I promise. 

So I moved to a new place today. Walking distance to skytrain and uni and entertainment things. 
Very nice. I love the lady in the reception already. 

3 days until I can hold the person that's constantly occupying my mind. 
Looking forward to the 9 hour drive only because I know it will bring me to him.
It's weekend in Bangkok. I'm reading through next weeks studies. 

 

Yes. Signed the contract for a new room today. Smoothly and steadily.
Cheeeezus, I'ma have a bathtub. Moving in four days. Travelling to Cambodia in five.  

This flow feels great.

Meeting up with Piano tomorrow, heading up to the 80th floor of Baiyoke. 
 
Siem Reap

Dont freak out now ok. I'm still using my 35 dollar old school phone. But as my dear brother
gave me his Galaxy phone before he went back to Sweden I decided to create an Instagram account.
See you here ---> feeghi

I'm hopefully moving next week by the way.  Room hunting right now. 

 
Said goodbye to Cambodia once again. I don't like these days and I miss you already.
I miss joking around with you, bike racing with you, speaking khmer with you, kissing you,
walking with my arm tightly holding yours. Miss how you hold me, how you look at me, how
you laugh at me when I mess up.  I wish I could fall asleep tonight with my head resting on
your chest, your arm reaching around my waist, feel your heartbeat, inhale the scent of your
body. I miss us. Leaving you today felt like leaving a part of myself. Can't wait to hold you again.
This is real. 

Bangkok. Last day with la familia. We just got back from Koh Samet. 
Introduced Alma to sushi yesterday... She went cray cray, threw rice, raw fish and soysauce all over my
apartment.  Maybe you should keep a safe distance from the wasabi next time. Yeah you know what I'm
talking about. And try not to let the alarm go off in the elevator again. Kids.. 

Cambodia tomorrow!  Hollaaaaa

I try not to think about your soft tanned skin, the sidecut in your dark hair, the way your arm muscle flexes when
you play pool, the way the diamond on your tooth glistens when you smile, how you flinch when I kiss your neck,
the softness of your lips, the spark in your eyes, how easily you get frightened, how you wrapped your arms around
me like you were never letting go, the gash in your left eyebrow or the way we'd stand on rooftoops screaming
things out into the night.

I try not to think about it because it hurts too much to know that I can't open my eyes right now and look into your
brown ones. I know that even if I stretch my hand as far as I can I won't feel your presence. 14 days left.
I want to hold you so bad.

 

It's alive! I mean my blog.

Let me update you briefly:
I went to Cambodia after the last exam, 8 wonderful days. Got sick, got taken care of. 
Said a painful goodbye. Hurts still. See you in 16 days. Yes it's a new countdown, better get used to them.
Back in Thailand. Got some infection in my body, draining my energy. Sitting by the beach in Chumpon writing this post with la familia. Going to Koh Tao tomorrow.  
Ska käka lite skumtomtar nu. 

Merry Christmas lovers and leeches!

 

suddenly it's only 5 days left. 

Arrived in Bangkok today. Got delayed or something like that.
Stayed two more days in Cambodia. Had the best time ever.
Sneeking into temples, getting chased by crazy girl, playing pool, partying all night,  
Crazy, amazing, wonderful youth. 

Relaxing. 
Looking forward to see BKK tomorrow night.

What is the most frightening thing:
The fact that thousands of people starve everyday
or the fact that people think it's acceptable?

I do believe I am right when I say that most people just don't care as long as their own ass is safe.
Or they care, but they do not take action. Which to me is just as careless. If you disagree with me,
maybe you should think again. There is enough food in the world to feed all humans, and still hundreds
of millions of people go hungry ever day. Incredible numbers. Hundreds of millions.    
How can this in any way be acceptabe? How can we stand by and watch this happen? 
The world is fucked up. No, I change my mind, the world's mentality is fucked up.
It could be so beautiful if we wanted it to be. There is an overlying selfishness that makes me sick.

We have to make changes. Stop focusing on trivial matters. 
FUCK the modern economic system. FUCK mainstream thinking. 
People won't get less hungry because you pity them.